The drastic change in personality from taking those drugs really bothered me. I didn't feel like myself. I was afraid that my conscience had disappeared. So periodically, I would stop taking the drugs....Which triggered withdrawal symptoms....and lectures from my mom.... and fights at home. I played this game of medicate-the-symptom for the next 15 years, through marriage and 4 pregnancies. I took Prozac, Paxil, Adderal, Clonozepam, Welbutrin and Effexor. Another therapist recommended Lithium, but my family doctor wouldn't approve it. My depression, anxiety, and executive function issues remained a constant factor in spite of the medications. I suffered from severe postpartum psychosis after the birth of each child and felt increasingly hopeless. Suicide was always a viable option in my mind. Whenever life became too hard, I would begin to devise a plan for this ultimate escape. I had gained 100 pounds over the course of 8 years as a side effect of the drugs and the depression. On the outside, I was a great mom. We blew bubbles, and baked cookies, and did homeschool, and took field trips. I made quilts, and planned play dates and taught primary. My husband was perhaps the only person who knew what was really going on.
In 2004, I met a woman who had just moved into our area. I met her at a church activity and she intimated to me that she "used to be" Bi-polar II, but she was "cured". I thought she was crazy. Depression cannot be cured. It can be treated with drugs, but never cured. She was adamant. She had used natural medicine to cure herself. We left the area soon after, but I was haunted by her claim. Could I really be cured? Soon after we moved to Boise, Idaho I found an amazing healer named Dr. Charles Wilcher. He is a Homeopath, Naturopath, Accupuncturist, and Chiropractor. He looked at my symptoms through so many lenses. He used accupuncture needles to open some blocked meridians, prescribed Homepoathic Sepia, and recommended a supplement for adrenal support. I started a program of regular exercise and in under 6 months, I was off all my drugs. I wasn't perfect, but I was on my way.
About 5 years later, I was introduced to another healing modality that would change my life. Essential Oils. This time the stakes were higher. It was my child who was struggling with profound emotional and mental challenges. It felt like a horrible dream. Deja vu, only worse. Having been through the medication game myself, I was determined that she not repeat my experience. The change for her began with a book called Emotions and Essential Oils and a drop of basil. You can read more about her story here. Suffice it to say that that drop of oil was the beginning of a miracle. Essential Oils have allowed me to support not only myself but many of the people I love through the physical and emotional ups and downs of life. Essential oils help us deal with everything from normal grumpy days to pervasive problems with negative moods and thoughts.
Its been 10 years now since I have taken a drug. I have continued with regular exercise like a religion and educated myself about the powerful effect of diet on mood and focus. I have learned SO MUCH about how much control I have over my thoughts and emotions and created powerful habits to manage them. I have used the services of talented therapists and holistic healers when I felt the need. I have been supported by essential oils that have become good friends on this journey.
I have maintained my mental health through 4 moves, the loss of a business, loss of a house, 4 ADHD kids, a daughter with Traumatic Brain Injury, major marital struggles, and a host of things that could have pushed a normal person over the edge, but I survived. I have not only survived, I have thrived. I have raised 4 children, doen the work to heal a troubled marriage, created a school, and built a thriving business. I am bruised, but not broken. I am alive. My message is that there is hope beyond depression and prescription drugs. Moods are not permanent. There is Hope and there is Healing for those who pay the price to take charge of their own Physical and Emotional health so they can have Peace and Joy in the journey. I have invested thousands of dollars in learning how to manage my thoughts and emotions and how to help other people do the same thing and I would love to be your mentor on YOUR journey to true Health and Happiness.
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